That is scary and I’m sure happens way too often. Bottom line, it is still a sexual assault. Just because you voluntarily take him into your mouth doesn’t make it any less violating or traumatic. It wasn’t a choice based on want, it was a decision coerced by fear. A person doesn’t have to shout from the rooftop and put up a physical fight to be considered unwilling. If you were in fear of what he was going to do and your actions were based on what you determined was the lesser of evils, you were violated and he deserves to rot in hell. Excuse me, but this topic has gotten me so angry lately that I really want to start wearing a t-shirt that says, ATTENTION: WOMEN ARE NOT WALKING FUCKHOLES. You would think that should go without saying but apparently there are still many who never got the memo.
Your writing is one of my very faves. You have a gift at provoking strong emotions. They emanate from every word. Thank you for sharing your gift.