I’m still in shocked with the news that I’ve just heard from my mom, can’t help and I was really breaking down on the phone while talking to her. Feels guilty because she was so calm and “redha” while I was the one that really cried like a baby, hoping that this will not happening to her.

I’m stuck with the exam and class coming along almost every weekend. I wish I can take a flight and go back to my hometown now.

I know she really needs me, because no body knows the news yet even dad. How could she keep this as a secret? What makes her become so strong to keep this for almost a month!! i’m mad at her for not sharing this much earlier.