How to live as an “non-resident” immigrant.

I need a credit score to rent an apartment. I don’t have one.

In order to rent an apartment, you need a permanent address in the US. I don’t have one.

Without a permanent address, I cannot apply to a credit card.

Without a credit card, I don’t get a credit score.

Without a credit score, I cannot rent an apartment to get a permanent address.

Now what?

For those of you who have not heard of OPT, it is abbreviated for Optional Practical Training. It is a period of time that US immigration graciously gives international students to do something “practical” related to s/her/their major. For non-STEM majors, it is 12 months. For STEM majors, it is 12 months with 24 months of possible extension.

I was a math major in college. I moved here during high school. I have been here for 6 years. I am considered an alian resident for tax purposes. I pick on myself for not applying for a credit card before I graduate because I did not know that I amgoing to be in the position that I am in rihgt now. It is quite awkward as I spend hours online looking at apartmetns. It is nerve-racking as I fill out credit card application and then close it, fill it out again and never submit. The anxiety of doing something wrong leading to a black dot on my immigration record weighs on me. The uncertainty and feeling of unwanted drives me to the wall.

“Alien” was the word US immigration uses to describe someone like me.

I don’t know how I am supposed to live sometimes. How many more paper do I need? How many application do I need? How many documents should I provide? How often do I have to archive everything I have done in this country to be a person?

Is it ever possible to get out of this muddy sticky cycle of unwantedness?

All I want is a roof.

I need a home.

Can America be home?

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