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Shawn, I wish I could recommend this twice!

I was, in the essay, half-kidding (only half) and trying to articulate not so much a disappointment in my numbers, but an acknowledgement of the seeming disparity. I look at my stats, for sure, but I don’t live by them. One recommend can make my whole day — I just want to be heard, find my audience, as it were. Otherwise we’re just shouting into the void.

You have captured some of my feelings perhaps better than I did. Some readers took me to task for caring too much about stats or suggested that Medium isn’t the place for me.

I’m afraid I’ve been a bit misunderstood (my fault, surely not the first time). I absolutely love Medium and am having the time of my life here. I’m just wrestling with how to make this writing thing fly as some sort of mini-career or something and, after years of sending missives out to the publishing world and waiting many months for the rejection, I’m antsy to be heard.

I am so grateful for all of you who read/respond/recommend. It’s a great community of brilliant writers. I’d love to see more of the cream rise to the top.

And the block party sounds awesome. I’ll bring champagne.

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