On Trauma and Hyper Sexuality — There is a direct connection between my mental state and arousal. When triggered, I go one of two ways; meltdown or hyper sexuality. The meltdown is the more ‘normal’ response. I struggle to think, to talk, or even to function. To recover, I need rest. I need alone time. …

Why you should start meditating today — Mindfulness isn’t about emptying your mind of thoughts — that’s impossible. It’s about observing the contents of consciousness as they are, for what they are, right now. Without judgement, filter, or labels. We observe thoughts, but don’t identify with them. How to practice mindfulness meditation 1: set a timer, take a seat and close your…

a poem — I fear death But I fear dying Having never lived A day Without fear More How is it, that despite the fear of not ‘living a full life’ we can perpetuate the circumstances that have lead to a comfortable rut? Doing what we have always done, day in and day…

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a poem — Your body So eagerly given Lost its allure Yet in your absence I find myself Wanting What once bored me Familiarity bred contempt Now distance is breeding desire Why Didn’t I fight For us? The grass is always greener and you don’t know what you’ve got until it’s gone. This…

a poem — i wake paralysed by fear triggered by nothing more than light sound smell and the obligation to persist forcing my eyes to stay open until it’s time once again to sleep Some days, I wake, triggered by my dreams. Triggered by the fact that I exist. It’s ridiculous to say…

I’m fine … Actually, I’m really struggling.  I feel anxious and depressed.  My head hurts.  I’m so tired.  I can’t hold down a job.  It…

The philosophical conundrum preventing my recovery from mental illness — Are you your big toe, or do you have a big toe? This question perfectly summaries the invisible nature of mental illness — let me explain. If I stub my toe, I can assess the damage. It is all the way down there, whilst I am all the way up…

Afraid to connect — unable to cope the broken man hides at home writing a poetry about a life he is too afraid to live My partner said to me a few days ago that I don’t seem to connect with her enough. Instantly I agreed and realised it isn’t just with her, it…