I Still Find It Hard To Figure Out WHY!?

I kept quiet. My mind was in a whirl. I was laying on my bed for sometime now. Staring at the ceiling in my room, thinking about the one question that got me into this confusing and gloomy state.
“Zaid. You have to have a Big WHY for you to be successful in what you are doing right now, in fact in life itself. So, what is your Why?” She explained calmly.
Funny huh, by now most of us have heard this question millions of time and heard about it when successful people talks about it often during their talks and shows.
I’m not sure about you, but a millionaire I know personally came face to face with me and asked me that question when I told her, “I wanna be successful, I wanna be financially free, I hate the way I am living right now. It’s tiring, draining, not fulfilling at all.”
And she smiled, looking at me with that hopeful glare as if she saw a spark of determination in my eyes. So, I guess she wanted to test me out. She wanted to know how willing and how determined I was.
She asked “Why?”
I stood there speechless for a moment. In fact, it was quite long.
Not An Easy Question
Yes, I was speechless because at that time, I didn’t expect her to ask me that. I expected her to say something like “That’s good. Keep it up. This is what you should be doing……”
But, it ended up with me feeling so annoyed at myself because I felt like a fool, like an amateur (Weell. I am still).
Then again, that was what exactly I needed.
A slap in the face. A realization. Self-awareness.
Why do I bother going through even more painful experience when I am in my comfort zone?
Why should I even risk being bankrupt at all and end up losing all of my family and friend’s trust forever?
Scary huh when you think about it.
The Night That I Barely Slept
Yeehh..
It got me thinking, thinking long and hard. I rolled over to the left and right and still couldn’t fall asleep.
Until, I figured out something that is important in my life.
I’ve been living a life following other people’s dreams. I’ve been following my ex Teachers and schoolmates advice all this while on how to live my life and that is why..I feel this sense of lack of fulfillment, this boredom and the need to do something else.
*3:00AM*
That was how late it was by then.
Finally, I realise what I’ve been loving and yearning to do for the rest of my life. A calling, you’d say.
I’ve always love to write and speak to inspire, to teach, to guide, and to share.
I’ve always love the hustle of working out and sweating in the gym. I’d love to get a chance to help others to enjoy working out too.
I’d love to get involved with organizing events that would help people solve their problems as well.
In The End, Not A Regret, But A Life Experience
In the end, I chose to try to test the new waters. I’m taking courses in fitness and nutrition coaching, learning how to plan and conduct events and workshops, all while working full-time.
Sometimes I still do get questions from wary people. Questions that would once again shake my determination. “Zaid..Why?”
I’d say the same things I just did above.
Because this is what making me feel alive:).
I hope in 2–3 years time, whatever the results may be, I would still say “I will not regret choosing this path”
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This article was written originally from TheLeanLife.sg
