Whenever I thought about my future, I wondered if I would have a child. There are many things I value in life. Your mum is definitely at the top of that list. Spending time with friends, family and having new experiences is also really important to me. I’m very passionate about my work, but I never want it to be the focus of my life. Your mum and I both love travelling, having adventures, but also enjoying quiet moments together. It was hard to imagine where a child would fit into this.
But even though I didn’t know exactly why, I felt there was something about children worth experiencing. Years of watching my own parents love me, despite my flaws made me think there must be something special I was missing, a feeling just beyond my comprehension.
Your mum and I spent a long time planning for you, but I don’t know if I could say we were at all ready when you came. The last year has been one of the most challenging of my life. Your mum did an amazing job getting you here and I’ve been in awe, watching her and wishing I could do more.
While having you has meant making some sacrifices, it’s easily been worthwhile. The adventure of bringing you into this world has already been one of the greatest experiences of my life and it’s only just starting. You’re something new to value even above myself. Even though you’re only 11 weeks old, I can’t imagine my life without you in it. The joy you bring me is so much greater than anything I could have imagined.
There are those who want to live vicariously through their offspring, but that isn’t me. Sure there are paths that I’d like to see you head down, there are unfulfilled dreams of mine that I hope become your own; perhaps you’ll build the next facebook. Maybe you’ll get to travel into space or even live on another planet.
But your life is yours alone. Only you get to choose how you want to live it. Whatever it is that you want to achieve just know this; I will always be here to support you if you need it. If you ever fall and lose your way, your mum and I will be here to guide you back.
If ever you are feeling less than perfect know this; no one expects you to be perfect, all your mother and I hope is that you be the best Rose Charlotte Peter you can be. If you believe in yourself, you’ll be able to reach whatever it is you dream for.
It’s true, a rose has some sharp points. If you’re not careful it can prick you and draw blood. But without the thorns a rose would be just another flower and so much more boring. Without pain, there is no beauty.
It’s kind of hard to put into words the love I already have for you. It’s completely unconditional, all consuming and everlasting. No matter who you choose to become, your mum and I will always love you Rose.
Your Dad, James