Today I picked up and took an old pair of black leggings to work, instead of my smart black work cardigan.

Zoe Hull
Zoe Hull
Jul 21, 2017 · 3 min read

I realised as I pulled up to my meeting and tried to put them on……

This is my new life as a tired working mum – Making silly mistakes or getting confused! I also left my work mobile phone at home and missed breakfast again (I am a religious breakfast eater!)

Life is different 9 months on. In ways I could never have imagined. I love it a lot. Baby Girl is awesome and cheeky. She is full of personality and knows what she wants!

But I am so tired! Just exhausted, all of the time. The husband and I seem to quarrel a lot about nothing. I try to remind myself to be kind and not nag, but I think I am failing.

I do find the mornings quite stressful and although we have a routine I still find that I sometimes would like to sit and have a cup of tea before starting work like I used to! I also get tired of the same thing every day, the most exciting thing is deciding if we will we have porridge or weetabix. She still won’t hold her own bottle of milk so I can’t even just give her that and let her get on with it, which would be easier!

However, I adore my weekends with her. I have lost my dread when I have a whole day alone with her stretching ahead of me. I used to get dread because I would worry she would cry and be unhappy or I wouldn’t manage to take her out anywhere or that I wasn’t giving her good personal development.

Now, weekends are great, we go swimming or out to play with other mums, or out just the two of us to people watch in the park. She loves to sing and as long as I have packed snacks she is happy. (Twice this week she has literally stolen food out of other children’s hands – we may need to address this at some point…). She is a wonderful sleeper the majority of the time and although she is an early bird she goes to bed without to much protest which we appreciate. I am still so knackered though. Not sure I could function if she was a bad sleeper. All hail those mums that do because they have to!

Despite being knackered, I feel more and more like myself everyday and I am starting to prioritise work a bit more (not ignoring my motherly duties of course) but I feel like I make sure the time I get with her is quality time. I sit and play and sing nursery rhymes and chat to her.

In terms of me personally I think I have given up dieting to have a decent body again. I just can’t do it all and although I hate feeling flabby and having to avoid pictures I figure that something’s gotta give and at the moment that is it. I think we all enjoy happy fat people more than miserable skinny ones! Ha ha!

The next blog will probably be quite reflective as I can’t believe I am sat planning my tiny baby’s first birthday. She still seems too little when I think of a one year old. Can’t believe I will be mum to a one year old. I guess I am a little bit sad but also a lot excited about what the future will bring!

I am also excited because the husband has says I can have a lie in tomorrow, so I might get to stay in bed until at least 7.30am. Whoop!

)

Zoe Hull

Written by

Zoe Hull

@zoehull2012 twitter/instagram/facebook I thought I should start a blog to really show new mums what is life with a baby is really like.

Welcome to a place where words matter. On Medium, smart voices and original ideas take center stage - with no ads in sight. Watch
Follow all the topics you care about, and we’ll deliver the best stories for you to your homepage and inbox. Explore
Get unlimited access to the best stories on Medium — and support writers while you’re at it. Just $5/month. Upgrade