Great article! I can very much relate.
When you return, as you will, it will be with a more wordly viewpoint. That is both a loss and a gain.
These were the words of a dear friend and mentor when I was about to leave my country (Mexico) many years ago. I indeed returned, and then I left again, but now with a much more realistic and mature view of my priorities, my expectations, and the reality of the countries I’ve lived in, including the one to which I decided to return and hopefully stay (Switzerland).