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So Much Sleep!
a haiku and more
I slept an extra
night, spread out across two days,
during the weekend.
On Monday, the 19th, I had my regular monthly call with my therapist. She seemed to think all my sleeping over the past few days was healthy. She also wondered if some of the busyness of my staycation was keeping me from processing my feelings about being alone.
So, I spent some time with my feelings, and I also slept some more.
A lot of my feelings have to do with aging. I’m sad that I’m not with my family right now because they are having so much fun, and I would love to be able to have that kind of fun again — the kind where you push yourself physically to ride a loaded bike up a hill or to spend a week camping in a tent. That’s never going to happen for me again.
I can’t sleep on the ground in a tent, and the stress of getting my three-wheeled, electric-assist bike onto a train would make the travel stressful.
Going away on my own for a month would clearly be too much for me. After not much more than two weeks pretending to be a tourist in my own home, I’m exhausted.
Am I still on my staycation? As I said during the weekend, absolutely yes. Although I can’t run around at 70 as I did in my 40s, I’m not done yet! You can follow my plans for the rest of the month here:
