Dreams of Fear . . .
Just a try for awakening humanity!
Thousands of people are screaming for help. Some are hungry, some are thirsty, some are lying on the road and shivering because of winters, they don’t have blankets to cover them. Some little children are searching for food in the garbage. Some have unfulfilled dreams in their brimmed eyes, some are wearing disheveled clothes. Oh, Gosh, where am I? Why I am here? What should I do? How did I reach this stage?
Today, again, I had a dream — a horror — terrible dream! I’m trembling after seeing this, I’m reminding myself I’ll not be like them. No, I can’t. How can I kill the humanity of my conscience? Why do I have this dream again and again? Why can’t I have normal sleep? Why is there a weight of ‘Not to do’ settled over my head? Why can’t I be like others? Without having a heart of mercy, without thinking of hungriness for little children, without having the emotion for helping the people who want, without giving a hand for those lost in their ways, without having the pain of losing humanity, without living like a human — why can’t I be the robot, not having feelings and emotions of mankind?!
I should be like this, to live happily, to have beautiful dreams. I should make myself a ROBOTIC DUMMY or like animals who don’t understand the language of humans, who spend their lives without any aim, without a passion for living. Why does my inner voice scream at me? Why does my conscience say to me a clear ‘No,’ No — I can’t be like this! I can’t live as a murderer of my conscience. It’s so difficult for me but what should I do? Where are the ways? I am feeling so tired from seeking the answers to my questions. My shoulders have bound to hold the weight of ‘not doing’ anything. My breath started to tarry for pumping my heart. I am losing myself in dark regret, but I can’t be a loser!
Because I still have hope, I can’t lose my hope that one day, one day I will start to have good dreams again. I will have a beautiful reality with complete equality, justice, and humans with humanity!
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My motto of life is to serve humanity, to make peace & to share Love!
If you liked my piece and want to read more so, here’s a link of one more piece on equality and humanity — My experience with a headscarf!
