And, that is not a good quality to have — I know that, but it doesn’t mean that I will ever get any better, but I can at least say something. I will try to do so today.
I do not have the energy to do all that I have been doing and to consistently and constantly do it everywhere. I have shifted some things in my life and those things are beginning to manifest in major ways and more of my energy will be directed to those things. One of them will be transitioning from my current job (And if you have been following me since 2015, you’ll know that this is VERY MUCH needed.) after five years, three of them of which have been incredibly unhappy for me, I am leaving that place. I will be moving soon as well — more of my energy will be directed to that event.
I love Medium for what it is. I cannot stomach it much more for what it is not. Add all of these things up with taking chances and not having those chances turn into positive realities and one can really lose oneself — if one allows. I am not allowing that. I will not be active on Medium right now. Fierce Force 💃🏼, I see you — I hear you. I do not know what it is you are going through, but you seem to have an insane amount of drive and “bounceback” and staying down is something I cannot see you doing. I wish you well; in your healing, with your pain, and with your words. Roy, I am “fine as wine,” and I am trying to stay that way. To those of you reading, responding to, and clapping up any work I may have posted recently — thank you.
I do not know how to answer your questions if you have any, I can only say that this feels right and leaving and staying for good without saying anything, felt wrong. I will be logging in from time to time as I am saving my work and moving pieces to various files. I will not deactivate my account as this is unfair to the various publications who published my work in their incredible pubs — when a Writer leaves on Medium, their work follows them. For all of you who have taken the time out to read me, correspond with me, respond to challenges, build, grow — make Medium what it is, thank you. You guys are incredible gifts and I for one, treasure the mess outta you.
I will not say Goodbye — I will simply say, “See you later,” but when later will be, I do not know.
I love Zoom by the Commodores. I hope you do too. I’ll leave that with you for your listening pleasure.