Untested and Unlived Love
Haibun A Heart
I have lived with you in bits and pieces. You never wanted to stay and this time I didn’t wish to stop you. You have had your reasons for betraying others. But I didn’t have any so I never betrayed anyone. Your sense of betrayal taught me how damaged and broken you were from inside.
I wish this time you could heal physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually.
You always taunted me that it wasn’t working between us, and I always tried to ask you what wasn’t working between us? But you never responded and threatened to block me from everywhere. I was smart, though. I knew I couldn’t expect a lifetime of happiness from a weak man.
Hence, I never followed you back. I did let you go.
I am amazed now. You stalk me everywhere. You couldn’t digest how I survived that blow all alone. I did. I am a strong-headed woman, and I knew this time I wouldn’t let you shake my world upside down. It got shaken, and I saw myself on the ground again. This time my soul was hurting more than my body.
But I have forgiven you. I am sure you are going to repeat the same cycle with a new woman too.
I am praying for you. I pray for damaged people. That’s how I know God will heal them by listening to the prayers of an honest heart.
I was hurt by you.
Still, you didn’t take the blame dear.
And I forgave you.
