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Matthew MacLennan
A Narcissist
Published in
Jun 20, 2022

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Photo by Moses Vega on Unsplash

A sigh puts an end to
The recurring depth
I die into death
Repeatedly

Scratching an itch
with a swipe
A scroll
A like has a toll
This life feels so whole!
Attention is money
You cannot share

You cannot care
i love u i swear
Egos swole af
Mans was dyin lol

With a square in my hand
and my head in the square
and my mind dimensionless
you cannot care,
scratching an itch
To forget

When I up and look around,
startled by sound,
Infuriated by nothing but
numb to fury
Embarrassed I couldn’t
survive except synthetically

At least hypothetically
I care
that I’ve swiped
the hours left
my heart right in
the sauce of anxiety
devoured.

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A Narcissist
A Narcissist

Published in A Narcissist

This is my journey away from myself and toward others. I want to stop destroying people’s lives. I want to live my life with others. I want to form real relationships. I want true intimacy. That’s what I want. But it’s not what I look for.

Matthew MacLennan
Matthew MacLennan

Written by Matthew MacLennan

A recovering narcissist. I want to see your eyes and face your questions.

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