A Reclaiming In Wait
By denying your intentions
I denied your betrayal.
By denying your betrayal
I denied victimhood
and took accountability,
claimed control over choices
I never had.
But I feel the shift as
an ember takes root,
spreading molten strength
through these veins
to burn out the lies
I build like a fortress.
The house of cards
I no longer need to survive
simmers to ashes.
I cast out the nothingness-
shame, guilt, shoulds and ifs
worthless shields crumbling
to their knees.
As you should have.
Liar, destroyer, fear-filled heart.
I no longer need you,
I no longer need the piece of me you hold
you cling to desperately
as she spills through your fingers,
through the very cracks of this earth.
You thought you could keep her?
Part of something greater
than even I could realize.
This part cannot be taken,
held in a violating grasp,
trapped in a jar for so long I forgot
what it felt like to be whole until
those crystalline pieces of me
found their way back-
falling from the milky night skies
to settle upon my shoulders,
spilling over my crown
dusting dark lashes
to straighten a heavy spine,
they cast out the lies
the fears, you.
Even in that cold pit of
despairing night
my power found me.
Rising from those cracks,
from the heart of the earth,
vessels glowing with life
seek purchase
impossible to restrain.
The magnetic field of
belonging belays,
a call begging response
to reclaim things lost
but never gone.
