The Ocean, My Father, and I
Written on June 1st, 2014
As part of A Story Each Day
My grandmother used to tell me that before the world went bad, everything was in sync. Of course, at the time, all I could think of was the boy band (It was the 90’s, what would you expect?). I’m still not sure what she meant by that, or even if she knew what she meant by that.
“Before the world went bad.” When was that? Last week? A hundred years ago? What happened to make it go bad? Was it the first time a caveman smacked another caveman? Or maybe the first time a caveman thought about smacking another caveman? Or was it before that? Maybe it the first time a carnivorous plant snapped down on an unfortunate fly for the first time?
Had my grandmother been religious, I would’ve just assumed she meant the Garden of Eden, or some other fantastic tale about when things were perfect, before we chomped down on a forbidden apple. But she never ascribed to any organized religion, so I was left wondering if she really was referring to the 90’s boy band. For a long time, I was fairly certain she was. But that changed.
I was with my family at the beach — one of the only appropriate places to be in South Carolina in the middle of July. The thick air was humid enough to slice up into squares and serve with dinner, alongside the inordinate amounts of seafood that we had every night.
My brothers and my sister and I played on the beach for hours and hours, building sand castles and dodging waves, slowly darkening under the bare and naked sky. Even though asthma and the bouldering ocean waves have never been good companions, I challenged the sea with the brassy confidence of an experienced sailor.
But like a squealing kid running from a rushing wave, it caught up to me. That night, after my aunt and uncle and grandma and grandpa visited our beach house, my lungs tightened.
I’d just lain down to go to sleep. My skin glowed hot with a days worth of sunlight. As my breathing slowed to a calmed and regular pace, I could feel my throat tighten. I reached for my inhaler, and took a breath, but it didn’t relieve my lungs from the dry, stifled feeling of being filled with sand. I stood up, dizzy, and wheezed my way to my parent’s room.
My dad heard me, scooped me up, and carried me outside for a gulp of fresh air, holding me and telling me: “Breathe”. The night was silent, except for the sound of the ocean waves, my dad’s breathing, and my own lungs trying to tag along. Slowly, they started to catch up.
As he held me in his arms, I could feel the rise and fall of the waves as clearly as I could feel the rise and fall of my dad’s breathing. Slowly, they started to sync. Before I knew it, I was breathing in unison, like perfect notes in a chord. The ocean, my father, and I.
There are 7,237,297,206 people in the world, last time I checked. Each person has different fingerprints — no two are alike, or so they say. Each person has different breathing patterns — no one consistently breathes in and out at the same time, or in the same way.
Or so they say.
My grandmother used to tell me that before the world went bad, everything was in sync. I realize now that she wasn’t talking about the boy band. I don’t think that the world ever was in sync, or that it ever will be. But for me, on an evening in July in South Carolina, it was.
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