Encamped beneath the mountain…
“like one man with one heart”
As the day winds down, concluding the final moments of the last Sefirah energy of Gevurah, this final, most powerful manifestation of majestic Malchus/royalty, strength — we feel how it prods us, to begin edging away from the ambivalence of “search mode” — gradually inching closer to making concrete commitments — and the certainty associated with “arriving” !
Too often, in becoming overly comfortable with our wanderings, we develop “journey junkie” syndromes — that ironically, make us feel anxious about ever “arriving” anywhere!
In this addiction to our uncertainties- the researching of different paths, replaces and obscures the need for actually choosing one.
Just as in the cosmic world of Malchut — G-d uses his own Gevurah, “motivating” him to move beyond the abstract notion of a created world, toward the actual creation of that world,
so too, when we are in Malchut mode, our Gevurah — energizes us to move beyond the abstract notion of recreating our lives, motivating us to take the necessary steps to actually create — higher ways of living.
Gevurah of Malchut, is where we switch from “we will listen and then we will do” to the opposite, “ we will do and then we will listen.”
The world of Malchut is where we start circling over the airspace of our destination, and the kind but firm voice of Gevurah, intrudes on our reverie, announcing, proclaiming — the end of the journey — reminding us to fasten our seat belts and prepare for arrival!
Tonight, as we enter into the airspace of Tifferet/Beauty, we will also be in Rosh Chodesh Seevan, circling — hovering, we manage to glimpse, just barely, the faint Silhouette of Sinai, as it beckons to us softly, just beyond the horizon.
Tonight as we begin to move toward the mountain, toward our collective encampment at its base, we remember suddenly, with deep clarity, that we undertook this journey as our fierce protest against tolerating, settling- for a life of emotional mediocrity, a real stepping back from Egypt, a backing away from fear — freeing us to live, fully untangled from all our enslavements, daring ourselves to actually reach for, the meaningful, melodic lives of our wildest dreams.
Rabbi Yossi
