About Me — Autumn Rae
A Journey to Becoming the Woman of My Dreams
I’ve come to realize that taking the first step is the only way to open the door to a world full of possibilities. That’s why I’ve finally decided to start my writing journey on Medium!
For a long time, I wanted to use Medium as an outlet to share personal feelings and experiences about people around me, expressing myself in ways I felt I couldn’t in my daily interactions. As I approached my 28th birthday, these feelings deepened. I yearned to be freer with my expression, but doubt would always creep in: “What if no one wants to read what you have to write?” “You’re not even a writer; you’ll just embarrass yourself.” So, I procrastinated, and my desire to write remained just a thought.
Now, nearly a year later, and as I approach my 29th birthday, I’m mad at myself! I can’t help but think, “You should have started earlier.” It’s a never-ending cycle I’ve dealt with since childhood, letting my desires and dreams pass me by. I now look back with deep regret at all the great ideas I ever had but never pursued.
These unfulfilled ambitions are largely due to severe anxiety and self-limiting beliefs, which have often held me back and made me a late bloomer. I have yet to achieve things that many accomplish at much younger ages. As a teenager, I imagined that by now things would have changed, but I still navigate life with the same anxiety I had back then. I know the 15-year-old in me is disappointed to see that a lot has remained the same.
Despite this, I’m always trying. I’ve continuously made steps to challenge the thoughts that hold me back. Now, I’m on a mission to see how much of my life I can change before my 29th birthday. I want to blossom into the woman I’m meant to be. This blog is the start of that change because, as they say, it’s better late than never.
Through writing, I’m stepping out of my comfort zone and beginning a journey of self-discovery through self-expression. I haven’t figured out exactly what I’ll write about, but I hope to resonate with others, especially women who are late bloomers and struggle with their mental health, particularly anxiety.
Now that you know a bit about me, I want to share some lighter aspects of my life. Here are some fun facts about me:
- I enjoy late-night walks.
- Nature’s beauty entices me but also freaks me out.
- I have a bad habit of listening to the same song on repeat.
- I like to meditate.
- Although I rarely keep up with the news, I have an interest in social issues and trending topics.
- I like to keep up with health and fitness.
If you’ve made it this far, thank you for joining me as I take these steps toward becoming the woman I’m meant to be. Let’s embrace the journey together.
