About Me — Marcela Cardoso
A writer. A dreamer. An adventurer. A spiritual being in a human body. This is me.
The Beginning
I’m a jigsaw piece that never fits.
Bullied since kindergarten, I always wondered what was the purpose of my existence. Nobody accepted me for what I was — a clever child who loved stuff like books, animes, and old songs instead of the bs people my age loved. My parents created me to be the perfect kid, so I couldn’t express myself and live my own experiences. Even in the middle of the crowd, I was lonely.
This led me to a life of depression, anxiety, and confusion. I hated myself so much that I just wanted to disappear. My only desire was to put an end on the pain that tortured me everyday.
It also led me to awful relationships — including an abusive one. Eventually, I set myself free from them, and started building a better life for myself. This time, I heard a calling I ignored through my teenage years. I knew in my heart that I needed to write.
Writing
With a lot of inspiration and tears, I published five books in Portuguese (I`m Brazilian). They were fiction stories about things I enjoyed. My characters have more of myself that I want to admit, but I don’t care. If my work can’t reflect who I am as a person, then I’m only an actress living another person’s life.
My books led me to express myself, and sign books at the biggest book fair in Brazil. They made me proud of myself and confident in my writing abilities. I knew writing is what I came to do on Earth.
Nonetheless, I faced another problem: even though I knew writing was my calling, I didn’t know how to profit from it.
Through college, I got a lot of jobs, but neither of them fulfilled me. I couldn’t stand being jailed in an office with controlled times to do anything when I could be writing. I never spent more than 7 months in a traditional job, and made an income working as a freelance writer and proofreader for years. As I also dreamed of being a business owner, I tried several ways to make money online but gave up in the middle of the way. I’m a person who can’t do things I don’t believe in, so most of the ways to make money online that gurus preach didn’t fit me.
Years passed, and I couldn’t find a good way to make an income. I became the shame of my family because I didn’t have a great job or a house and wasn’t totally independent.
I lost count of how many days I cried for not having everything figured out and having to run after money. Now, almost ten years after I graduated from college, I’m finally creating a business that has to do with me. It’s still in the beginning stage, but I’m proud of myself by making it come to life. Now I’m making money from being myself.
Throughout my journey, I learned that things flow naturally when you are aligned with who you are. You just need to listen to your intuition, and do what it takes to make your dreams come true.
Spirituality
Another fact that impact my life was when I discovered journaling, meditation, and spirituality in 2017. Those things helped me to understand myself, as well as connect to my higher self. I manifested things I couldn’t imagine, and received great guidance from the Universe.
Because of this, I discovered my mission on this planet: to create a life I don’t want to take vacation from. It led me to travel, connect to good people and discover more about myself. By sharing my experiences, I hope I can use my writing to help others create a life with living. I don’t have everything figured out yet (maybe I’ll never have), but I believe everyone as something to share that can improve someone’s life. We just need to be ourselves and open to share the lessons our journey teaches us.
So what can you expect to read from me?
- Life lessons
- Personal development
- My experiences
- Travel
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