ABOUT ME — PHOENYX
More than meets the eye….
When tasked with sharing a picture for this post, I combed through my archive and came across this one. It makes me so happy..not only because my dog is in it (who passed away in 2017), but also because I was truly in a ‘happy’ space at that time in my life.
She looks unrecognizable to me now.
I’m here to introduce myself. I enjoy the idea of presenting myself in this way on this platform because there’s no expectation as to how this should be done.
You go to a party, you give the usual small talk, blah blah blah. Here, I can introduce myself uniquely with the intention of it being much more interesting than chatter over drinks and appetizers.
I am psychoanalytical by nature. So, instead of just rattling off things about myself, I’ll share something about myself (my blah blah blah over appetizers, if you will) adding a deeper meaning behind the relevance of the share right after. Here we go! I hope you enjoy.
- I love animals! I have two dogs, a pit mix named Majik and sheltie named Kody! They are my heart and I don’t trust anyone that doesn’t like animals.
These dogs saved my life, literally. I had to put Suga, the dog in the initial post, down due to kidney failure . I picked him up from a breeder when he was 6weeks old and had him over 15 years so he was my everything. I went into a deep depression, and although I told myself I couldn’t get another dog, I wouldn’t have picked myself up without deciding to do something else. These two were my lifeline. ❤️
2. I love to sing. My answer to ‘What do you want to be when you grow up?’ before I ‘supposedly’ GREW up, was a SINGER!
This has always been an outlet for me. Somewhat of a latchkey child, I wasn’t allowed activities outside of academia. When I joined the choir in 5th grade I loved it! So, middle school registration started, and my mother wasn’t going to register me for choir. I cried and begged for this ONE elective that had nothing to do with being ‘smart’. I got it, but it was a constant carrot dangled to keep me in line. I’ve sung in some capacity most of my life.
3. I have a BBA in International Studies and Real Estate, an MA in Psychology and am completing my MS in Mental Health Counseling.
I’ve never thought myself to be smart. I did ‘smart’ things, ie was in honors courses, made mostly A’s etc. not because I thought I was capable but because it was expected of me, so more out of fear. I was never TOLD though, ,that I was smart. If anything, I was told the opposite. I didn’t realize my mental abilities on my own until I pursued my masters work.
3. I take time to take care of myself physically especially. I’ve worked out in some capacity since I was 14 years old, carrying that into my adulthood with being a physical trainer, nutritionist and coach competing in fitness competitions and prepping others.
I saw my mother navigate through high blood pressure and cholesterol issues growing up. Her doctor encouraged her to change her diet and workout and this was just ideology I picked up through her experience. Later, it became something I wanted to ensure I didn’t have to suffer through or pass on to my children. Even through all this preparation, I suffered from a stroke the last part of 2020, and recognized the power of stress and past traumas on your mental state and body.
4. I am in my THIRD career change. I started off in business and finance, went into wellness and fitness, and am now in psychology and mental health counseling.
I used to be ashamed of this. I felt I didn’t know what I was doing. Although this is still debatable, I realize I was figuring out, for the first time, who I AM….not was. I WAS who people thought I should be. When I stopped agreeing with what everyone else was comfortable with, I settled into (and am still settling into) the rawness of my truth.
5. I am a true introvert. I come across as social and outgoing so people are typically surprised when I present this share. My preference though is quiet and reading. I love to learn from books but especially people and experiences.
I come from a ‘speak when you are spoken to’ upbringing, so I was quiet, by force and then silent out of habit. I have become more comfortable with hearing my voice and having one so, I do speak more, but only when I feel people are truly listening. We love to talk about ourselves, and sometimes, I just let people talk. They aren’t really listening anyways. They are just waiting for their lane to start their narrative. But when I can truly vibe or talk with someone in an authentic, real, unashamed, and non judgmental way…that energy is freeing.
6. I changed my first name, legally, a year ago, to Phoenyx. My previous name?….oooh click here to read my post. It’s pinned!
Seriously read my post. It will shed some light on the change. If you recognized the subtitle (More than meets the eye…?) you are a TRANSFORMERS fan. The significance of transformation and being more than skin deep is here….
6. My favorite, favorite, favorite is chocolate!
There’s nothing else to add to that one. Chocolate ANYTHING is the BEST!
I stated earlier that the person in the picture seemed unrecognizable. I realize how much happiness I had in that picture and how much strength I place now in allowing others to control that for me. I’m doing some traveling back in time, to let go of beliefs, hurts, and even people, to find that ‘girl’ again. My journey now is being reflected in my words and through this ‘medium’.
I hope you’ll join me.
Thanks for reading.
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