About Me — Rebecca Jay
I’m living for the hope of it all.
Hi there, I’m Rebecca! I’m just your average mid-twenties girl trying to figure it all out. I graduated from college in 2020, with so many hopes and dreams but no real plan. One gap year turned into two, the pandemic got worse, my unpaid internship taught me all it could, and I ended up working at an Amazon warehouse. During this time, I turned to music, books, and writing more than ever before. In college, I just couldn’t find the time to write or read, but during the pandemic, for the sake of my mental health, I had to find the time. Now that I’m in a much better place, I thought I’d give writing a shot beyond my journal. I’m hoping to continue to find the time for my hobbies even when I start law school in the fall.
Some Background
I grew up in the midwest, and I’m the youngest of three. I am a Pisces sun, Leo moon, and Taurus rising. I am an enrolled member of a Native American tribe. Ever since I was a kid, I would turn to books to find an escape when reality became too much. I tend to gravitate toward romance novels, but I also love a good mystery or YA fantasy series. Music has long been another form of escape for me, as well. I bought Taylor Swift’s debut album when I was about eight, and I haven’t stopped listening since. Considering what I’ve mentioned so far, it probably won’t come as a surprise that I am also obsessed with pop culture and the entertainment industry. Whether it’s The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills, the Scream franchise, or basically any celebrity gossip, you can bet I’m going to tune in. Last but not least, I’ve always had a vivid imagination, creating stories in my mind from as far back as I can remember.
The Highs and Lows of the Pandemic
When the pandemic hit at the end of my senior year in college, I finally had a moment to sit and take a breath and figure out how to creatively express all these ideas. This came in the form of reading for pleasure for the first time in years and actually considering writing as a future endeavor. Coming from a low-income background, I knew that pursuing writing full-time was not going to be an option any time soon. I also have a passion for the law and knew that financial security was important to me, so I decided to apply to law school. I am heading to a top 10 law school in the fall, with hopes of being able to fit in time for writing (both for fun and possibly a book).
While the pandemic allowed me to catch my breath for the first time in a while, I am not going to sit here and act like it wasn’t an incredibly hard time in my life. I was separated from my family, living in the college apartment I had already paid rent for. All but one of my roommates left. The job I had planned on working during my gap year before law school fell through, and my unpaid internship wasn’t cutting it. I moved back in with my family and got a job at Amazon. I was really hard on myself- about my lackluster job and having to move back home. On top of this, I was struggling with my mental health, specifically anxiety, which I had previously never dealt with. Long story short: it was the best of times, it was the worst of times.
Hopes for the Future
A big part of my life these next few years will be law school. While financial security is part of it, something’s gotta give, too. Human rights, income inequality, everything. I am part Native, I come from a low-income background, and I am a woman. I am determined to inspire change in my community and in others. I am the first in my family to graduate college, let alone go to law school. It’s not going to be an easy road, and I’m hoping my imposter syndrome can take the backseat, but I am so incredibly excited and grateful to start this journey.
I am definitely going to need some creative outlet during law school, so I plan to write on here about anything and everything. I will talk about pop culture, Taylor Swift, music, movies, mental health, current events, politics, and my writing journey. I’ll probably sprinkle in some law school content, too. One of my long-term goals for the next few years is to finally write a book, so that’s something I’m bound to mention as well.
All in all, I’m beyond ready to start this new chapter in my life. In the wise words of my favorite lyricist: I’m happy, free, confused, and lonely in the best way.
