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Am I Regretting The Decisions I Made In College?
I want to do my best but I haven’t done anything yet.
I want to prove myself. I want others to know that I know things as well. But I haven’t done anything like that.
The more I dive deep into the subjects I want to be proud of, the more layers of struggles keep coming up. There’s no end. The delay is inevitable. It’s not impossible. And... When I realize it's not easy, my brain tells me that I may have chosen the wrong path. Then I shift my direction to another topic.
I don’t stick to one thing for a long time.
It's neither good nor bad. Because at my age, I have to explore every field. I am still young.
But I want outcomes. If I am working on skills & stuff, why am I not seeing results?
Is it because I keep jumping to other kinds of things when the important part has just begun?
Maybe so.
I know why I jump
Because I fear I will be left out.
But if I want to be good at something, like I said at the start then I have to dive deep. No matter if it's tough or takes time. Then only I can become good at it.
