Ramblin’, Not Amblin’, Through Life

I’ve Just Never Been Able to Amble

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Why ramblin’ and not amblin’ through life? I explore this in my upcoming sixth book, Head Talks—Ramblin’ Through Life.

Merriam-Webster defines ambling as: “an easy gait. A leisurely walk.” Hmm. I just don’t feel like my life has been a leisurely walk. It’s always seemed so intense. And M-W’s ramblin’ definition is: “wandering about from one place to another. . . . Proceeding without a . . . direction.”

Amblin’. I just never had it. Maybe some lives amount to an easy gait. But, not mine. No gaitin’.

I blame my lack of gaitin’ on several factors. Too much introspection. I’m too much of a loner. I’m too self-conscious. There’s been too many crossroads presenting too many decisions.

I’ve had too much second and third guessing of my decisions. I’ve lived through too many mid-life crises.

Just too many ifs and buts.

I envy those who’ve gone through life truly amblin’. It seems like a good way to go but not the lawyer way to do it. At least not for me.

You see, the biggest factor in not amblin’ was the lawyer thing (you’ll probably remember that I write and talk a lot about being a lawyer, now a recovering lawyer). I was a business bankruptcy lawyer for…