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Bloom Once More Just Like Before
I let my old self wither so the new ones can grow
Lately, I’ve found myself more isolated than ever.
Conversations feel like obligations. Hanging out with friends feels heavier than it used to. Even those closest to me start to feel like strangers.
Uneasy feelings creep in — a blend of unworthiness, loneliness, and fear of the future — while the world continues to surprise me with its unpredictability.
Once, I felt lost in the chaos of reality. Now, I’m lost in the comfort of my own world.
Who’s supposed to save me this time?
Everything I’ve done was meant to make me “somebody,” to prove my worth. Yet, some pieces of me seem to have disappeared into the unknown. I don’t even know if I’ll ever feel whole again.
But then I asked myself — hasn’t it always been like this?
Haven’t I reached the goals I used to dream of? Didn’t I make new friends, build confidence, and become “someone,” stronger? Then why does uneasiness still weigh me down?
After giving myself time to sit with these thoughts, I began to see things more clearly — not a conclusion, but a comforting realization.
