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Choosing to Write After a Suicide Attempt
Over the years, I’ve had depression alongside suicidal thoughts and attempts.
Sometimes I really wonder how I survived through all of that. 11 years is a long time.
But no matter how determined I was to take my life, there was always a tiny light inside me.
I believe that for you and your loved ones too! We may not always know, feel or believe it, but we are incredibly strong and brave for continuing to live in this world.
Thinking of suicide, that it’s your ultimate destiny, can feel like it is your whole identity — a person who doesn’t belong on earth.
But, WE DO BELONG.
God created all of us for a reason. We are part of that ‘all’.
Surviving
When I attempted suicide in 2023, I was incredibly sure that I didn’t want to be here anymore.
I felt that my life had been going on too long. I’d decided to leave years ago, and didn’t go through with it. I felt that, by living, I was in debt. I felt like I was a non-transparent ghost, roaming where I shouldn’t have been. I’d had enough. I was going to fulfil that debt and kill myself.
