Newfound Love
Calm After The Storm…
The start of the year 2025 has not been what I’d expected it to be. Last year, I came out of a very rugged relationship. I would not be extreme about it and say that it was the worst period of my life, that would be unfair. If I hadn’t faced the extreme heat of that furnace, I would not be the sharp sword I have turned out to be today.
Towards the end of May last year however, that relationship, and with it, us sharing the same apartment came to an end. As a result, stability resurfaced into my life, like land after a tsunami.
As time went by, my sanity was slowly being restored and I found myself in a much better place. I also discovered Boxing as a sport, and my life hasn’t been the same since. Physically, I am probably in the best shape of my life, which in-turn, has acted as a catalyst for the ascent of my mental health.
Now, when I indulge in extravagant food on the weekends, or sometimes, on the weekdays (Yolo!), I am no longer pestered by incessant knocks of guilt which used to trouble my conscience as I was in the process of devouring the last slice of my extra pepperoni double cheese pizza.
I no longer stare at that empty box of pizza and convince myself that ‘I am a terrible person.’
All of that, has now come to an end, and my life is better for it.
I have also learnt, that to separate the physical health from mental, and vice versa, is a futile exercise and chasing only one is practically useless.
In life, I have realized, duality sits at the surface. Form motivates the mind, and the mind guides the form.
Yin-Yang. Shiva-Shakti. Purusha-Prakriti.
Like the universal fabric of space-time, like the dual properties of photon which is a wave-particle.
Chasing balance, and not exclusivity, is the secret to a happy and healthy life, that much is true. Life is dual.
Anyway, I digress.
Last year, I thought that that the year 2025 will be a linear exploration of my skillsets which I have been gifted with.
An exploration, which will lead to an ascent as I continually explore my abilities.
I will still do that with concrete determination. but I have to admit that a sudden coming of a storm has positively disrupted all that I had planned for the first quarter of 2025.
I am in love.
I honestly did not expect to find it this year, neither was I looking for it with any real desire. And I certainly did not expect the all powerful Love to manifest and reveal itself to me in the form of a girl…A woman, who’s prettier than anyone I have ever laid my eyes on.
Beautiful, not only in form, but also in her mind.
I have to say: Thank you, universe, you have blown my mind once again.
I’ll forever be grateful to you.
And as I prepare to traverse this new storm of love in my life, another one if raging in my mind. A storm of questions and doubts.
But if there is anything that I have learned in my life, it is to remain calm when I see a vortex coming at me.
Because for all the love that this girl can offer, I cannot, not for long, afford to lose my footing.
It cannot waver my resolve to conquer the mountains I have set out to conquer. I must not be diminished in trying to embolden our relationship.
Is it possible then, I wonder, to be in the storm and yet be grounded? To be blind in love, yet not lose the sight of the final frontier?
As I am now regaining sanity, and the novelty of newfound love is slowly dissolving, I am waiting in excitement for time to reveal the answers to my questions.
