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The Long Quiet: On Burnout and the Hope of Return
When ambition collapses, what does it take to rebuild a life — not as it was, but as it might be?
There is a particular silence that descends when ambition collapses. It is not the clatter of failure, nor the fanfare of success’s final bow. It is quieter than both — a hollowing out so subtle it mimics rest. If burnout has a sound, it is this: the soft, unassuming hush of a spirit receding from the arena it once dominated.
I know this silence intimately.
Burnout, to the uninitiated, is a term often dismissed as millennial malaise — a convenient shorthand for the ennui of the over-entitled, over-stimulated knowledge worker. But for those of us who have lived it, burnout is not an affliction of laziness or ingratitude. It is an existential erosion that begins long before the symptoms are legible.
Mine began, ironically, at the zenith of my career. I had scaled the rungs with a velocity and precision that made the impossible seem inevitable. Boardrooms bent; ceilings shattered. I had become fluent in the grammar of winning — until the cadence became unsustainable.
It is difficult to recognize burnout when you are still winning. The body, remarkable in its elasticity, learns to metabolize exhaustion…
