Member-only story
When Emotional Inconsistency Creeps Into Your Self-Worth: What’s Wrong With Me?
If you’ve felt this and found your way through it, let’s talk.
Right now, I’m the perfect description of complicated.
Why?
One minute, I’m sound, high-spirited, extremely cautious of religious guidelines…
The next minute, I’m down, unmotivated, dull, and carefree.
So am I the only one in this box?
No.
And I figured we’re many. That’s why I’m writing this.
What I think makes this happen
In my personal life, I wish for things to be a certain way… but for whatever reason, they keep being as they are.
And I ask myself many questions.
Honestly, sometimes I doubt my worth.
But deep down, I feel like the problem lies with me, in relation to my surroundings.
For instance, I’m happy—and somehow, I just blurt out things that put others off.
To me, it’s harmless. It just a simple thing that should not cause anything,
So, instead of letting it go, I keep asking:
Why did that sound wrong?
What…
