Diabetic Cyborg Life 2/22: Still Letting go
That situation I spoke about before was all smoothed over with unconditional family love, yet I am still not forgiving myself. Coming to terms with my current state of limited mental ability is a concern to me. Of course, I am the guy that was found completely disabled by a Texas judge just over a year ago.
Coming to terms with the reduction of mental and physical abilities and seeing that is what proved my disability to that judge. The forgiveness of myself is something I know will come with time.
Realizing my reduced intellect and skills I honed with years of college are not what they were will take me even more time to reconcile.
Time and the compassion that I try to show everyone else I know will take hold on my failure to reach the desired mental state. The dream of being a doctor was given up years ago, however, having the mental acuity of that level was still a hope. Letting go of that, it appears, is still something I must do for my own mental health.