Diabetic Cyborg Life 2/22: Still Letting go

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That situation I spoke about before was all smoothed over with unconditional family love, yet I am still not forgiving myself. Coming to terms with my current state of limited mental ability is a concern to me. Of course, I am the guy that was found completely disabled by a Texas judge just over a year ago.

Coming to terms with the reduction of mental and physical abilities and seeing that is what proved my disability to that judge. The forgiveness of myself is something I know will come with time.

Realizing my reduced intellect and skills I honed with years of college are not what they were will take me even more time to reconcile.

Time and the compassion that I try to show everyone else I know will take hold on my failure to reach the desired mental state. The dream of being a doctor was given up years ago, however, having the mental acuity of that level was still a hope. Letting go of that, it appears, is still something I must do for my own mental health.

Just add that cerebral keenness to the guitar, gym and basketball I once loved and celebrated in being able to do.

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Adam, Diabetic Cyborg

Adam, Diabetic Cyborg

Muslim, Optimist, Chronic Lyme Disease survivor, History/Poli. Sci. Prof. with no class. COVID Boosted on 8/25, 2/2, 7/15, 9/15 💍 10/6 & 1/17