It seems I will keep this multi-part series going until my Mother fully passes on. Her stubbornness is clear now more than ever, as she refuses to go until she’s darn ready to go! She is inert and catatonic, as the cancer eats away at stomach lining and all her vital internal organs.
She shows no signs of recognition or awareness to voices of loved ones anymore. The time I saw her on her second day in Tyler will be my last memories of her. She was there 100% and able to talk and think and almost fully function.
I had a feeling that was going to be our last encounter, though, that was the day before the bad news of no chemotherapy coming. I still had the feelings that things were the worst, and nothing could help. Alas, days later that was all confined as the OGBYN and Oncologist refused chemotherapy. That would prolong pain and suffering they assured us.
A true miracle is all that could, and can, save her now, yet she is unable to let go. That stubbornness to hold on no matter what was passed on me, as I battle my diseases.
I am thankful everyday she was able to pass on that tenacity to me.