Diabetic Cyborg Life 5/08: Mother’s Day
Feeling mom’s loss is ever greater today more than ever before. All the hype and ads pumping up this day for profits helps matters that much more. Getting more adjusted to the fact that she is no longer here.
Her passing just over a month ago still stings and likely will always for all my days here. Moving on is not the idea, getting “over it” sounds too much like forgetting to my ears. Coping and managing is how I deal with my illness’ effects on my body, and logically the way I will manage with this.
Living for her now is much more my way of not living despite the fact she is gone but living in the face and despite it.No, I do not mean in an angry hateful way, but a peaceful respectful way. Allah took her from us, and there was a reason. We must recognize and respect that.
It is a horrible way to make change or enrich our lives for the better, but we just must continue living. Controlling what we can and making the best lives for us along the way.
We’ll see here when we get there, I just hope that’s way in the future after a long healthy, as I can get, life.
