Diabetic Cyborg Life 9/01: Show me How to Live

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Life is a jumbled mess of intentions and assumptions that usually never happen as time plays out. Through cycles of hope and despair we try to soldier on and find our ways to the next moment, hours or day. We can act and try to live that life we foresee and desire in reality as things play out.

Intentions hopes and dreams often fall to the wayside and are lost ideas of a life that never was. As I sit now, I still have 60 days until I meet my soon- to-be wife. I just hope this relationship is not a lost hope that dies in the edge of reality.

Was my sudden reliance on the thoughts of us too soon to mean so much, maybe so? Yet, I need them now to live to the next day like an addict needs that next fix of whatever thing one’s addicted. That is my way to cope and live in the life of a chronically ill patient with non-terminal illnesses.

Yes, that survivable state is a blessing, though it often feels like a curse and an albatross around my neck. Simply living and trying to maximize the time I have left on Earth is how I live and function now.

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Adam, Diabetic Cyborg

Adam, Diabetic Cyborg

Muslim, Optimist, Chronic Lyme Disease survivor, History/Poli. Sci. Prof. with no class. COVID Boosted on 8/25, 2/2, 7/15, 9/15 💍 10/6 & 1/17