Diabetic Cyborg Life: I am Lucky in One Important Way

“We do not choose this life,

We only try to live as “normal” functioning people,

But our bodies fail us in so many unseen ways.

We might look perfectly normal and healthy,

But internally our bodies are broken.

We did not want to be limited in the ways we live,

And choose to be over fixated on the mundane details of everyday life,

We only desire what everyone wants in life.

To be content at home,

Be productive at work,

And loved by family and a companion for life.

We survive and appear to be holding it together,

An unseen turmoil in our heads and in our bodies,

It can wreck everything we desire,

But don’t feel sorry or sympathize for us,

Just use empathy to feel when our physiological issues,

Chronic diseases are taking a toll on our beings.

Our tragic lives are not for naught.

We can rise and inspire others to elevate ourselves as better people,

We can withstand any barriers life presents along the way.

We always have hope to cling to like a baby that someone is try to rip away.

Hope is enough to get us through it all,

And will get us to our journey’s end,

Like it has millions of the people before.”

“…my wife had a chronic illness — cancer — for over a decade. I thought I would mention this small reflection, as it touches on your call for empathy, which a compassionate world would offer you, and everyone who suffers in this way…my wife’s illness became a “preexisting condition,” which disqualified her for medical coverage…we moved to France.

In France…long-term illness…is grounds to be relieved of having to pay for anything…

The motivation for that comes from a recognition that someone who is already suffering through a long-term illness should not have to bear the additional worry of paying medical bills — even copays…”

“…I really want to get out to a place like France that cares for the chronically ill instead of demonizing us. Lack of money, my family being all I have and many other forces stop me from getting the car right now and heading to DFW to fly elsewhere…

I do know that we will leave quickly if ACA is killed and my health insurance is gone. My health is the cause and thing my family pays for and cares about the most right now. I am just lucky that they are willing to throw every penny and effort into caring for my health and mental health. I realize again how blessed I truly are that I have the family I have.”

“…Only true suffering can lead to true wisdom, and compassion. I think one of the main reasons Donald Trump is the way he is; is because he’s never done an honest day’s suffering in his life.

If you have no spiritual beliefs, this will be cold comfort to you… but I believe there’s nothing random or accidental in you having the problems you have. This is the life you signed up for (before you were born), in order to become a much wiser and more compassionate being than most humans will ever be.”

“…I just take every day for what its worth and what it has in store for me and us as people living in modernity…

Cheers to us for surviving through another year on this planet. Lord knows the fiats seem against us all sometimes. I just hope we make another revolution and many more rotations around the star that lights our lives and made this all possible.”

“I spent a lot of my own life in prison, and I spent way too many years thinking I would never, ever, get out. I survived those years by doing what you do — never thinking about the future (because the thought of spending the rest of my life in jail was unbearable) — only about the present. This strategy served me well while I was Inside, but since I’ve gotten Out, I’ve found it a mixed blessing.

Sometimes, it helps me get through hard times; sometimes it makes the hard times last longer. Sometimes, living one day at a time makes me accept things I could and should change. It makes me somewhat comfortable with crappy situations, that should make me very uncomfortable, and goad me into action.

The trick is to find a balance … between living in the present, and imagining a positive future.

…it must be nigh-impossible for you to imagine a positive future…but if you can’t imagine a better future, you’ll never work towards making that future happen, and you’ll be stuck in Groundhog Day…Kudos to you for sticking with your uni (a.k.a. university) studies…at least in that way, you are working towards creating a better future for yourself.

You also seem to have a pretty good grasp of the “Glass half-full technique”…practicing gratitude for what you have, rather than grieving for what you lack. Keep that up: it will serve you well, no matter how your circumstances change.

…I recently wrote an article on the importance of supporting other writers on Medium; then realised I’d made a hypocrite of myself by not supporting you when you’ve clapped for several of my articles…”

“Thank you Chris for the responses and compassion. I will have to dig back in your feed and read some of your work and read up on your book. I just take everyday for what its worth and what it has in store for me and us as people living in modernity. Doctor Who is one of my favorite sci-fi series on TV and the entire genre…

Cheers to us for surviving through another year on this planet. Lord knows the fiats seem against us all sometimes. I just hope we make another revolution and many more rotations around the star that lights our lives and made this all possible.”

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Adam, Diabetic Cyborg

Muslim, Optimist, History/Poli. Sci. Prof. w/ no class. 🦠 maxed out on Boosters 💉 💍 on 10/6, 1/17