Being a chronically ill patient with multiple sclerosis (MS), diabetes (type 2 then type 1), and chronic kidney disease (CKD), means that I don’t remember what normal feels like anymore. These last 21 years of illness leaves me with a constant state of fatigue and an ominous feel of, “what’s…

Appearance is far from my whole heretical story. I appear to be a white man, as my father identified as on most of the paperwork he used for ID, jobs, and most other official state, local, and federal levels. His mother was from Mexico and father was white from San…

Life is hard. Whoever said different or that it can be easy was lying to you or simply trying to cheat or take advantage of you. Things are always a varying shade of gray that can be the best, most awesome times ever, or the worst, most horrible trials ever. …

Honestly, I can remember journaling and writing about plans, life, love, and everything during nights when I couldn’t sleep in my early 20s. No, I don’t know where those notebooks are, yet I am better off not being able to find them. Sometimes thoughts are better. …

… My pathological need to explain myself to myself could be done in a private journal or diary. Yet, I use this blog to advocate for health reasons, change in a humane direction, and more fair minded politics. …

I look at the Medium front page, or myriad blogging platforms pages and envy every single blogger that does this because they want to write. I have a psychological motive to write, blog, and talk about my life. …

Action has consequences and we all must all face that, well unless money, power, or corrupt practices can exempt one that. Face the proverbial music one day or the next eventually catches up with everyone. Pray that infamous music is not death from our deeds and misbehaviors. No, I don’t…

(Good song by Smashing Pumpkins BTW) As the infamous idea goes, every new beginning is another beginning’s end, also a good one by Semisonic, Closing Time, the end of my Mom’s life is a whole new chapter. The pos-mom period WILL, not might, but will be that much…