Mental Monsters

Love me like you do:

Demons enjoy and love killing me from inside out!

When it comes to living with mental illness, there’s a demon that comes with it and that is what has and can take control over us and our lives more than enough. It can just turn your life upside down from positive to negative fast and easily enough.

But there are healthy ways to cope and live with demon. It’s right to believe that no one can just forget mental illness or their mental illness once they’ve recovered; you don’t end recovery. Recovery does not end, it’s a life long journey and path that we will have to work on daily but take some time for little and big rewards when appropriate!

That’s the thing about depression: a human being can survive almost anything, as long as she sees the end in sight. But depression is so insidious, and it compounds daily that it’s impossible to ever see the end. – Elizabeth Wurtzel, Prozac Nation

Seeing the beauty even through all the bad things, they focus ONLY on the good! The things that they feel happy, confident, and that accomplished feeling we feel in return! Basically seeing only the good and better things in the big picture of things!

Keep doing that! And no one and nothing can break you!

When you suffer with mental illness in a shameful society we all appear to be living in, it’s more than true to state that we will feel more alone even when around people like friends, co-workers, family and other acquaintances.

But its also true to state that is does get better. Your life can get better! There are millions of stories that all represent as hope and known as life saving to those who need it. Those who are still suffering in silence by the stigma and demon we all live with. There’s hope and a better future out there, we just need to learn and accept that we cannot look for the light, we must be the light ourself. We must hold on regardless of how hopeless and helpless we may feel inside.

Depression is known for being the most misunderstood yet also misdiagnosed. Because it can be hard sometimes to be able to identify whether a patient is mentally depressed. And with living in our shameful society with the mental health community, it’s almost impossible to survive such a traumatic and life changing chapter of anyone’s life.

There may not be a cure for mental illness but there are ways of coping with them. Whatever and which ever mental illnesses one person may have, it takes a lot of time in recovery to find the right medication that works with every diagnosis/mental illness/addiction that one person has. Along with lots of time in recovery to recover to be able to do the things we cannot do when mentally ill.

The Tragedy of life is not death but what we let die inside of us while we live. – Norman Cousins

When you are depressed, you don’t have any real contact with your emotions. Your emotionless.

Sometimes we end up falling in love with our depression because we have already accepted the fact that we won’t be able to live a normal life to achieve and have all those things any normal human being can have in their life. We have accepted that we won’t be able or willing to survive this storm because we aren’t strong enough to fight it.

So eventually it leads to suicide and the way society views and treats those mentally ill and suicidal, act as their part in the contribution of the number of suicides we have. Yet society wonders how that number got to be so high as it is without wondering or thinking what part they played in that number itself.

Robots are capable of a lot more than you think: this movies proves this statement!

Del Spooner: Is there a problem with the 3 laws?

Dr. Alfred Lanning: The 3 laws are perfect.

Del Spooner: Why would you create a robot who could function without it?

Dr. Alfred Lanning: The 3 laws will lead to one logical outcome!

Del Spooner: What outcome?

Dr. Alfred Lanning: Revolution

Del Spooner: Who’s revolution?

Dr. Alfred Lanning: That detective, is the right question!

Depression is so hard to be understood by others who don’t have any real experiences with it. Those who don’t know what depression and mental illness is like, they respond in easy judgements without even thinking.

They don’t think the things they speak to the mental health community affect the lives on earth. The things we speak affect whether someone will remain alive or end their life. If we want that suicide rate to go down, we must realize we need to accept and admit to our own wrongdoings of our contribution to that big number and then figure out what kind words we can use rather than those we normally use when speaking to anyone who may live with suffer with mental illness.

Which with enough time, do kinder things for others showing them that people in our world do care enough to express that towards people in the mental health community.

Depression is…laying down at night and feeling the darkness settle upon your chest. It is self-talking your way through hours of silence. It is attempting to slow a brain trolling through the shadows of your head. It’s nightmares and flashbacks. It’s counting the hours until dawn. It’s the shackles you break to face another day.

Depression is not at all what anyone should or want for someone. It’s nothing no one would ever want if it were to ask to be depressed to become depressed. And yet we still and won’t have the control whether we end up mentally depressed or rather mentally ill. And another thing that we do not have control of nor can prevent is relapse in mental illness when recovering.

When depression or another mental illness becomes a part of our life, it doesn’t just have the power and control over us but also enough to turn us into the opposite of our real self. It makes us from a positive person to a negative and yet mentally ill kind of person.


Depression is such a cruel punishment. There are no fevers, no rashes, no blood tests to send people scurrying in concern, just the slow erosion of self, as insidious as cancer. And like cancer, it is essentially a solitary experience; a room in hell with only your name on the door. – Martha Manning

And sometimes I just need to be alone; so I can cry without being judged, so I can think without being interrupted, so I don’t bring anyone else down with me.

“It’s like having a bully in your head.” – Nicky Limmer

Sinking in pain

Somehow, like so many people who get depressed, we felt our depressions were more complicated and existentially based than they actually were. – Kay Redfield Jamison

Well to start off here, I’d like to share with you about some discoveries I’ve made months ago probably in 2016 or early 2017. Which has everything to do with me and my mental health which also includes my mental illness (condition: depression).

To begin on that subject, I’ve come into and through some tough times which felt hard to get through and know what the real cause or something that triggered me to act a certain way; but regardless of that, I’m still feeling like myself. I’ve also come to learn that taking 1 pill (1x27mg) of the Concerta equals in me feeling like myself, feeling with all emotions intact, able to eat a managed diet each day, have more energy than when I take 2 pills. I find that I’m also unable to eat a proper diet in a day when taking 2 pills, which I think the medication has some effect on my appetite and other things like my energy, feeling like myself, emotional health, etc.

After attending my 4th group CBT session for “stress and anxiety management” I’ve come to learn that the reason or thing that triggered me to act the way I did the day before my college graduation to my parents was due to anxiety/stress towards possibly a little nervous for graduation. Makes sense, me and my family will think about that in the future from now on! So glad, figured out why I lashed out at them.

I’m still gonna continue to stand up for myself when around my parents and anyone else when opportunities present themselves because I love myself enough to not take crap nor let anyone treat me wrong. I deserve to be treated better than mental illness and stigma along with society has treated us. And we need to go and make that a habit!

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