The Duality
There are two of you: one alive Saturday, and another Sunday
Sometimes you surprise yourself about your decisions or thoughts.
You just are not sure that’s how you would carry yourself any other day.
You wonder, why I don’t like how I am expressing myself.
And so you dive into a spiral of negative thoughts that demolish any sense of self you might have.
You want to crush what you have seen because you are not proud.
You want to feel like someone else, someone else you have been in the past before because that would be convenient.
You could avoid feeling things that don’t make you happy.
You believe you are alive to be happy. In fact, if not happy, why even try?
But you often stop there, before you can move forward, the next day comes.
And perhaps if you are lucky, you will arrive at your wish, with someone else at the helm.
Someone you have met before and someone you can count on. They have a great track record, they live up to your expectations, every single time. They are just perfect.
The day goes swell, better than you could have imagined (considering what you had experienced the previous day).
