The Confessions of a Father of An Autistic Child -

Frank Priegue
Apr 24, 2019 · 4 min read

Hi, my name is Frank Priegue, I’m the father of an autistic child. It felt good to write that. This isn’t a deeply held secret, our family and friends are aware. If you follow me on Instagram, I’ve included hashtags like, #autismawareness, and #autismdads to my posts for well over a year. I’ve allluded to Cristian’s autism but never dedicated a post to this topic until now. This is Cristian’s official coming out as an autistic child.

Although greater awareness exists these days, few individuals without a relationship to someone on the spectrum know much about Autism Spectrum Disorder. Before I became a parent, my only exposure came from the film Rainman. I knew nothing of IEPs, Developmental Pediatricians, or District 75 schools.

Like many parents, I went through a stage of denial when Cristian was diagnosed. My wife and I sat quietly with our mouths hanging open as we read the diagnosis. How could our child be autistic? He had a few eccentricities, which a specialist might diagnose as sensory issues or developmental delays, but that doesn’t mean he’s autistic. I convinced myself that autism is the flavor of the month diagnosis doctors are handing out in large numbers until the next one comes along.

Denial can be a potent concept. You can justify anything if you repeat it enough — I know this because I did this with Cristian. My wife Esther and I are first-time parents of a delightful little boy. He loves attention and admiration, rewarding those who play with him with a 1000-watt smile. So when we noticed oddities, I easily justified them.

Cristian didn’t say his first words until well after he was a year old, but so did I. I didn’t speak until just before my second birthday. I was a Stay at Home Dad for two years, working as a medical biller. Cristian played with his toys or watched Sesame Street while I reviewed spreadsheets. I kept convincing myself he wasn’t receiving enough stimuli.

Cristian played by himself during storytime at the local library and didn’t interact with the other kids during his My Gym class. I thought it was odd when he didn’t play with children he’s known for several months. The group leaders told me many children less than a year old engaged in parallel play, so I didn’t think very much about it. Cristian is an only child, the son of older parents. We tried scheduling playdates with his cousins to socialize him, but they are 3 and 4 years older than him.

I was aware of a few peculiarities making him different from other children his age, but he was a healthy baby, his pediatrician assured us of this. He scored high on the growth charts, and he liked adults. How could there be something wrong with him?

It became increasingly difficult to keep ignoring the obvious. The differences became more apparent on a trip to Puerto Rico to introduce Cristian to the family. Playing with cousins who were his age, Esther noticed he wasn’t exhibiting appropriate behavior for a one-year-old.

Despite her background as an early-intervention coordinator, I still wasn’t fully convinced. She was a first-time mom, who worried if it was too hot or cold. First-time moms worry about everything. It wasn’t until Cristian started rocking back and forth in his car seat with greater frequency and running back and forth down the hallway in our home like he was running wind sprints that we decided to have him evaluated.

Being the parents of a special-needs child is challenging, but raising any child is. Parenting is about meeting challenges when they arise while giving the illusion that you have everything under control. Don’t feel sorry for Cristian, he’s not feeling sorry for himself. He’s a happy six-year-old, who loves to run, play, and read books. As his parents, all we ask for is patience, understanding, and awareness. Take the time to get to know him and be part of his world on his terms. You might be surprised at what you see.

Originally published at http://imnotgrandpa.com on April 24, 2019.

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Writer, Father, Autism Advocate. Follow my blog http://imnotgrandpa.com

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