HEALTH | PERSONAL ESSAY
Do I Have MS or Dementia? Or Is It All In My Head?
I don’t know, but I’m getting really scared
Prologue
I have written here and there about my struggles with depression. I try not to write too much about it but every once in a while a wave of emotion overwhelms me so much that the only thing I can do is write it out to the world.
What I haven’t gotten into is one of the sources of my current depression and I’m pretty certain there are others out there who experience the same source with their own struggles: chronic pain. And it’s more than the pain. It’s the endless testing, increasing difficulty in walking, unbearable pain in my feet, electric shocks through my arm, horrible headaches, neck stiffness, and—worst of all (believe it or not) — uncontrollable fatigue.
A year I’ve been going through it to this level. An entire year. And as time passes, I feel like my doctors are paying less attention while my body progressively goes haywire.
It has negatively impacted every single aspect of my life.
I have been unable to do much of anything — I mostly stay home. The positive of that is I have reactivated my writing life and am exploring other cool activities as well.
