A Lot
I swear I can’t make up my mind
whether loving you
was the best
or worst thing that ever happened to me
because
you often make me cry
and i’m not sure if that’s ok
and i know sometimes i get too mad about it
and you say i’m too moody
but i think it’s your fault
i wasn’t like this before you came
and every time i cry you say you only wanted me to smile
and i get lost in the thought of you
loving me more than you possibly can
more than i love you
which i’m not sure if it’s a lot or a little
but i get lost in the thought of you
and i know i’m in love with you
but i’m scared that i fell in love with the things i pictured you doing
not the things you actually did
i think that’s why i cry a lot