Discovering My New Identity
My therapist told me that I keep filling water in everyone’s jar without realizing that my jar is getting empty. I keep pouring without giving others a chance to pour water into my jar when it’s empty. At the end of the day, when I am in my lows I expect others to refill my jar, but unfortunately they don’t. He taught me how I can refill my own jar without expecting others to do it for me. And this advice from him saved my life from becoming a hell. I have started to love myself again or, let’s say-I have learned to love myself again.
Few ways in which I love myself and celebrate life every day
- Spend more time playing with my furry buddy Juno. When I am with him I don’t have time to think of anything else, and there’s no place for negativity in my life. He’s my companion in my highs and lows, and doesn’t shy away from doing anything that could bring a smile on my face. So yes, life now is full of snuggles and cuddles.
2. I reduced my interaction with people on WhatsApp and social media time. And sometimes my conversations sounded like I am least interested in talking with that person. But, that’s fine with me, people will always judge you, no matter what yo do!
3. I have started reading more books now. I have decorated my study room in such a way that it invites me every night to dwell on some great stories written by some great authors.
4. I say yes to spontaneous plans. I have planned by first solo trip to Mysore this weekend. Hopefully, I’ll be discovering a few hidden things about myself:)
5. I sing to myself, random songs from different regions. I open up the lyrics and start singing. Although I suck at pronunciations I am not ready to give up easily:)
6. I make myself feel special by distressing in a spa or gobbling up ice cream on a rainy night.
7. I penned my feelings down, I wrote down things that felt important. I now live by inspiration collated around me. I discovered a new persona within me that I wasn’t aware of. And these new aspects in life somehow helped me enjoy my solitude a tad bit more.
8. Finally, I allowed my heart to send a liquidation letter/exit notice to the toxic personalities it harbored. Cleaned the clutter and added space for better things and people in my life.
