From the authors bio

From the Author

Oct 13, 2020

Dear to those to all,

Are worried about me, I suffer from a term called Yami Kawaii. Basically, it means I want to die or kill myself thru it. Well this terminology is fixated in the Japanese Oriental Way, the fact that there’s times I can’t communicate and buy materialistic things and end up lashing out at people. I know its my fault but I’m just a designer hybrid learner. I went through touch times but most of the time I buy a lot because I cant think through the project.I ponder a lot and a lot, and wonder where’s the phase and the NEXT thing?

The realization of buying cute “objects” of the objectify was sometimes my understanding to become like a user in the movement in a conscious way. I know lots of people are jealous of who am I but I rather become the better me in what I can do better in design.

Designing, mmmh ?

If I think about it, the kawaii character part was manifested in me when I was young. I like anime and used anime as a way to draw everyday. I started drawing characters and understanding the details from as a kid to now. I know lots of people are worried about me but I’m fine. Just be me.

Although, in the dark past, I suffer the depression of people and end up not talking to people. :(

For those who are there, I’m just a sad student in a lonely depression of sadness.

I think this is the reason why people are in this situation as architecture students, which hinders our studio depression. I can’t sleep but rather think to die in my designs like ‘zaha hadid’.