Oct 9, 2020
Life in Weeks of Ponder
-where am I? Now?
Oct 9, 2019
I couldn’t sleep a wink since Monday, that Woodbury changes the syllabus every week, and I’m pondering over it. I’m slower than other people, in fact my body has been tired sitting in front of the computer and kept on non-stop thinking. I know it’s professionalism, but give me time, cause I’m really tired. I can’t sleep at all, and can’t sleep at all ever since, the teacher said,” midterms”, okay, I need to sleep. But even if I try to sleep in one second, I remember trauma, I don’t think I can ever sleep anymore. I close my eyes for five seconds, I can’t sleep, I need to take a break from the stress pressure I get from everybody in school. This is tiring, midterms are turning up, wait until afterwards. I mentally, wrecked myself up, just straining muscles for a long period of time, and can’t sleep at all, and wondering about architecture. I’m quite honestly dumb, but this is professionalism, I get it, I can’t sleep at this point. #design #architecture
I rather become a monster who doesn’t sleep anymore in architecture.
Writing this is not going to change, I’m just dumb, I look at architecture, but it’s true it’s hard, and I can’t think quitting when I putted the work. Well this is the life of professionalism when it’s architectural.
