With determination, anyone can fight depression.
I am just a 19 year old girl, but as we become older , we experience so many things in our life journey. In 19 years of my life, I also gain many experiences, some of them told me lessons , some made me stronger, some were happy, some were sad and all these experiences shape me to a person I am today!
There was a phase in my life when I was just not happy, I was 12 years old, it’s just that I felt sad all day and all night. I just forget that what happiness feels like, and there was no specific reason for my sadness.
Now, when I think about this, I feel that may be I was in depression but at that time I was just not aware about mental health. I was so embedded in my emotions , I didn’t talk so much to my friends and family. I don’t know what happened but just one day I felt like, for how much time am I going to be like this? Why am I wasting my life?
I just decided, “I will talk to my mom today just like older days” but I didn’t know how to do this, I had no guts! I just sat beside her and talked about some normal stuffs. I felt happiness after so long, I felt some inspiration to bring my life back to happy times!
I was just suffering, this phase affected my academics, my life, my social circle, my confidence and everything but I made the goal that I have to bring a change!
At every step, I was deciding what I have to do to bring happiness in my life again. I thought of different things like academics, family time and I was able to do it successfully. I was crossing every barrier and just going up to one stair step by step and every step gave me inspiration to do more.
I felt something inside, some energy that was pushing me and makes me remember every time that I have to do it and I will do it!
Finally the time came when I was happy, I was feeling good.
I feel so good now when I thought about the 12 year old me that had so much of potential!
Sometimes, I feel that depressive phase in present times also but now I am not scared, I just tell myself, if a 12 year old me have a power to fight depression then a 19 year old me can do this and much more! Now I am confident about myself that I can fight any hard phase and can start my life again.
Everyday of my life, I fight and now I am confident enough that I can do anything that I want. Now I am happy, I feel good, I am confident and I am proud!
If a 12 year old me can fight and win, then anyone can do this. We all just need some determination and we should trust ourselves that we are capable and we can fight and win!
