Like so many women of my generation, I didn’t have a built-in village when I became a mom. My folks were 3,000 miles away on the opposite coast. My friends were out of sync with me, either parenting much older kids or child-free. And my husband was at work 10 hours a day, leaving me home alone with a helpless newborn who came with no instruction manual.
“When are her real parents coming back to get her?” I remember thinking. How could I possibly be solely responsible for the health and well-being of this adorable but terrifying little person?
I had many new-mom questions and precious few answers.
Was it strange that my baby seemed to get hungry every 45 minutes?
Why couldn’t my baby fall asleep unless she was on top of me?
Would I ever feel normal again?
Between baby blues, sleep deprivation and loneliness, normal felt very far away.
Then one day, I bumped into a neighbor — let’s call her “Neighbor Mom — pushing a stroller. She was new to our building, but not new to parenting, ably balancing an 18-month-old toddler and an 8-year-old school kid. She must have sensed my neediness, because she invited me, a fragile stranger, into her apartment. It was cozy and inviting, strewn with kid stuff and safely baby-proofed. I lay my little one on a blanket on the floor and took a deep breath in, relaxing for the first time in ages.
Neighbor Mom and I developed an easy friendship, casual and convenient. We kept our doors open and could drop by any time the other was home. I tagged along on walks to her older daughter’s elementary school, just to have someplace to go and someone to talk to. We introduced our husbands and made simple family dinners together, arriving not with wine and flowers but with a highchair wheeled from next door.
As I got more comfortable with my new friend, I confided in her about my mom worries. At the top of my list: my baby wouldn’t sleep without being in my arms. If I tried to put her in the crib, she woke hourly, screaming. I was a walking zombie. Everyone from the pediatrician to my college roommate was imploring me to sleep train. I knew they meant well, but I felt pushed around, and I resisted.
Unlike, say, my own mother, this kind, gentle mama next door never criticized me or made me feel like I was doing it wrong. Instead, she talked about what worked for her. She shared her dog-eared copy of Dr. Sears’ Attachment Parenting book. I didn’t become an attachment parenting convert, but I took up baby-wearing and it helped so much.
I also learned a ton just by watching Neighbor Mom in action. She was masterful at setting limits without flying off the handle. If her toddler misbehaved, she crouched down, made eye contact and offered a firm “no” before redirecting to safer activities. It’s one thing to read about these techniques in books. Seeing them in action was much more helpful. I swear, my kids owe the fact that I’m not a screamer to Neighbor Mom.
Another important habit Neighbor Mom modeled for me was self-care. Here was a totally hands-on, devoted and present stay-at-home mom, yet I’d see her jogging out the door every morning before her husband left for work, getting her cardio while she could. She did yoga on a mat next to her toddler. She took a night class at the college. I saw that it was not just possible but smart to take care of yourself so that you’ll have the energy and enthusiasm needed for your children.
About a year after moving into my building, Neighbor Mom and her family relocated up north. I keep tabs on them through social media and loved seeing their family expand to include a third child. Although I was sad when they moved, I keep Neighbor Mom in my heart. Her example has helped me remember to be patient with the baby mamas I meet— to listen to them, support them and not judge them. New moms have enough busybodies telling them their baby ought to be wearing socks. I try instead to be the cheerleader who says, “All your baby needs is love and you’re doing a great job.”
Some time after Neighbor Mom left, a very pregnant woman walked past my building and paused so her dog could watch the squirrels. We got to talking and I learned she was expecting her first, and she had lots of questions. It felt good to be the one who had answers, or at least experience, to share. I wound up telling her about the wonderful preschool I’d found for my daughter, and a few years later I bumped into there. We’re still friends today.
I can never thank Neighbor Mom enough for all she gave me, but I can pay it forward — every chance I get.