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Death Doesn’t Make Sense
Why I stopped Asking Why
As I sit here watching my partner getting ravished by cancer, all of my “whys” are gone.
Initially, I asked myself and the universe repeatedly: “Why is this happening? How could this happen to someone so healthy? Why him? Why me? Why us?”
But over the past 6 months, I’ve stopped asking why. I have no more questions except “How do I stop his pain?”
If you read my last article “Pancreatic Tumor Shrinks with No Chemo — How We Did It”, you remember that we had some great results with Rick Simpson Oil. In two side-by-side MRCP imaging scans, my boyfriend’s pancreatic tumor shrunk by over a centimeter all the way around… and that was before he started chemo. Yet, every doctor we asked about it (even the one who told me the MRCP was the MOST accurate imaging for measuring the size of a tumor) gave us some weak excuse as to why our results were not possible…. even though they were clearly displayed in the imaging. After every doctor discredited our results, I could tell Hans lost some faith in it. I was impressed by our results and I wanted to keep pursuing this treatment.
Unfortunately, Hans was still having trouble eating anything because of the effect of the tumor and was literally starving to death. Because of this, he decided to pursue chemotherapy. As anyone…