Angry At Her Mother.
She’s angry at her mother; why didn’t she better prepare her financially, teach her how to manage her money?
Now she’s out in the world, insecure, unable to negotiate what she wants. Her peers are so confident; they have a savings account. What is a 401k? She nods along like she knows.
Why did her mom let her take out so many loans for school? She told her to follow her dreams, and shoot for the stars. But maybe that wasn’t the best advice.
She’s angry at her mother.
Her mother lives check to check. The anxiety is too much. She works retail jobs, and picks up seasonal work during the holidays. She’s trying to seem normal. She’s trying to hold it in. Thank god her daughter is going to college, at least.
But there’s a lot that she’s unable to tackle. Sometimes she shakes so hard she cannot fold clothes. Her mother always told her to push her feelings down, that what happened to her happened to lots of girls. That she had to just push through, and keep living her life, and not have it hold her down.
She often wondered if her mother had been through the same, but she would never say. Her mother also doesn’t babysit — seems incapable of taking more on. She wonders if her mother has the same panic attacks, the same shakes, and why she can’t talk about it.
