Diary of an Ordinary Woman

Saba Haider
Are You Out There
Published in
3 min readJul 24, 2022

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Teenage years, peer pressure, challenges of growing up as a female

A young girl sitting amongst a field of clover looking at the sun.
Photo by Melissa Askew on Unsplash

It seemed like another lifetime when I was a teenager. I had been having a tough time adjusting to my new school for few years. Change in my life has never been a pleasant phase for me. It takes me months and sometimes even years to adapt to new situations or surroundings. My mother was not happy with my previous school staff and its curriculum. But most of all, my figure was the main problem.

I looked older and different than my peers and they made fun of my physique. I was the only girl in my class who had breasts. I felt ashamed and despised myself. The girls asked me what did I put in my shirt to look bigger. I did not know what to do or how to hide myself. I used to go home and cry in solitude after school. I isolated myself from my peers. Even my best friend drifted away from me due to peer pressure. I never shared my problems with anyone and always kept everything in my heart. Consequently, I have repeatedly suffered from depression in my life.

A young blonde woman with a thick braid of hair acting as a blindfold.
Photo by Sharon McCutcheon on Unsplash

It was a blazing hot afternoon of May. I was making a futile effort to hide my tears and pretend to take a nap when my mom heard my sobbing who was also resting in…

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Saba Haider
Are You Out There

I love poetry. I write about love, nature, women, mental health, education and anything that intrigues me. I am an educator. Email: majdasaba6@gmail.com