Are You Out There — Poetry
Lonely Boy
Scars
Scars are left on what you call your heart from a dad that never was.
He left.
Not realizing that the lingering pain of a man unsure would wreak years of insecurities.
And create a broken soul, only some of us know.
This is what it is.
Your dad left before you could even remember his name and you searched for him.
Blinded, you searched for love.
And the emptiness raised into what we call heartache.
Little did you know that you would search for a man you never knew, you would search for you.
Lonely boy, you changed transgressions and searched for love in a woman. And this woman was your first love, and she left too.
Adding damages to an already broken heart and breaking pieces —
Pieces off of your heart.
Your soul.
Your pride.
Your dignity.
Lonely boy.
You then found a woman, that could have completed you.
But you fucked her.
You fucked all of her.
Instead of loving her, even though you did not know how.
Your pieces, created pieces, too many pieces of her broken heart.
Lonely boy, you just created a lonely girl.
Chalked-up dreams of hers were lost the minute you lost yourself.
Broken promises, crooked smiles, created within the pores of your bleeding love.
Love you never wanted.
Love you’ve always needed.
And now she is broken, you are broken.
And broken souls leak into the world we call whole.
Cruel, cruel world look where we are.
That woman, hurt as she is,
May never love again.
Her broken heart, will break hearts, and your broken soul.
Why? No one ever lets go.
What kind of love is this?
With so many challenges we already face, you would expect love to come easy.
Instead, you hold grudges from hurt from him —
And them.
When you should just let it go, be free, and give the love you never had.
Instead, a cycle is created.
He left, so you leave, and she leaves.
No one ever tries anymore.
You think of your biological father that abandoned you,
And forget your father who made you,
Made it possible to even make decisions you make today —
A cycle created by people unfaithful.
Rest your shoulders and cry on mine,
I will make you mine no matter what you do.
Lonely boy,
Give me a chance And I will love whatever is left of you.
