Dissonance

A poem

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Dissonance
conflicting beliefs
and lack of agreement
between what I want
and what I need

Seeing the truth
but choosing to stay blind
knowing what’s right
but wanting what’s wrong

I’m fine is relative
but mostly a lie
I’m good at pretending
so it’s easy to hide

I preach wholeness
but live fragmented
a mess of conflicting emotions
knowing what to do
but not how to do it

Staying hidden behind walls
to feel safe
but feeling surprised
when the walls crumble
and I’m left confused

They say fiction is false
the opposite of facts
and feelings aren’t facts
but feelings aren’t fiction
so how can they be false

There’s dissonance in hope
such a funny word, hope
an expectation of something good
focused on the future
but…