I’ve Lost Another Business and I’m Tired of Fighting

On being frozen in fear and losing faith

Iva Ursano
Nov 26, 2020 · 9 min read
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Waking up every day is tough

I’ve been fighting with Pinterest since they wiped out my account. Fighting with them to please “just dig deeper and find out what happened”.

Hi, how are you?

I’m tired of answering this question. “I’m great,” I say while deep down I want to get off this roller coaster called life. I have nothing left in me.

The first and last time this happened

This isn’t my first business loss so you’d think I’d be ok with this. Like I have experience and know what to do and how to move forward. Well, yes and no.

Grieving the loss of a business

I don’t know what it’s like to lose someone you love deeply or what that grieving is like, but I can tell you, this grief I feel now, daily, every minute of the day, comes in as a close second.

I’m tired.

At 58 years old, I really don’t feel like building a business again from the ground up. I’m really fucking tired. I’m tired of being at the mercy of giants like Pinterest and Facebook. Feeding them everything they want only to get fucked over by them in the end.

I’m afraid

I hate fear. Honest, I do. But I’m terrified right now. So many unanswered questions.

Everything happens for a reason, but wtf?

I’m a firm believer in this. Everything does happen for a reason. We don’t always know what the reasons are until much much later in life. I know this happened to me for a reason. I’m frustrated that I don’t know what that reason is right now.

Keeping the faith and forging ahead

It’s hard to have faith when something like this happens and you don’t know why. You have no clue what you did, or why it’s happening to you. You question yourself a lot.

Was this a wake up call?

So while I grieve I try to work on other things. I continue to write on my two websites, I keep feeding the Facebook monster, I keep fighting with Pinterest, I continue to create super cool poster quotes and now I’m even having fun on YouTube.

Just go!!!

I’m going alright. I’m gonna keep pushing forward and keep creating amazing content. I’m no fucking quitter. I am a fighter and a bit of a pit bull when it comes to my business.

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Iva Ursano

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Assemblage

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Iva Ursano

Written by

Self help Guru|Expat|Website: https://amazingmemovement.com/ mini self help eBook series here: https://books.amazingmemovement.com/

Assemblage

A collection of things or people. An object made of pieces fitted together. A work of art made by grouping found or unrelated objects. A publication on Medium.

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